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很苦的心
What is this feeling inside? its like so what if they ate dinner together, like i care. When he told me i was like hmm knew it would happen again but didnt know it would be tonight. Why do i care so much about anything. Can he please stop being so nice to me? The fact that he gives others the wrong idea. Come on man! Stop being so nice! Hmmm just been home for almost a week, today was the first day i stayed at home since i got back, so i was quite relaxed. Been out shopping and eat heaps and shopping again, tomorrow im going to dressmart! lol cant wait aye, lots of clothing. I need to buy some clear nail polish. Last night nearly all my friends went to this party in town and for a minute there i really wanted to go..but at the end i didnt. Sometimes i just feel like soaking in alcohol or whatever you call it, but we all know what happens if i get drunk... At this moment i can promise all my friends that i will go with you guys to monkey bar next time in dunedin or the other places. Can anyone help me? its like stupid heart! go away, lol if i dont have a heart then what happens? i wont be able to breathe? lol who cares, many another world will suit me better. Who knows? Ok stay calm, i mean if hes yours hes yours right. Optimistic people live longer hehehe  |
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IM FREE
Sorry i meant...like no more pressure and stress at the moment not like wow im free come and take me away sorta thing.... Im really happy that im done, and im sorry to the ones not done but its really soon, before you know it. Hehe hehehe...okay and then i came back to unicol for lunch and blah. OMG GUYS GUESS WHAT? I sorta turned away when we reached the door but then im like how can i not go in when ive already gone so far!? At the end i went into that place....like omgah i was like ewww how can this be sold public? Its so awkward! Anyway for people that don't know what store that is, i shall tell you it's a ice cream palour. Anyways...then off to VOLUME 1 to try and sell my accounting book but then the stupid guy was like nah i don't want to risk it cause arrr!!! * punch his face! At night...had a Floor BBQ...it was like so gay and so i left strait after! stupid gay event!!! aarrrr!!! Oh and then i had dinner out... 1. waited at different destinations 2. misunderstood each others wants for dinner 3. walked real far 4. went to JJs at the end and sorta stank afterwards 5. sat for a long time and talked and blah blah blah..... ewwww in floor common room and hearing sounds in the other room....ewwww guy and ewww girl...equals to ewww ness... IM GOING HOME on SUNDAY! |
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KITE
When flying a kite, you can't pull too hard, you can't just let go...all else you will lose it at the end. Anyway, I really didn't think i had to make a second decision about whether to stay or not...I thought i already made the decision last year. That decision i made last year was something i took a while to come up with. The past few days, i've been thinking of this and that. It's like...should i stay or should i return home? There are pros and cons for each right? Staying here would mean that i get to really be interpendent. Returning home would mean that i would be mummy's little girl again, but with warmth. I know if i return home my parents would be so happy and nothing would matter, when i need a hug i would just run up to mummy and hug her until she makes me let her go. If im here...there's NO ONE. Friends are there for me but will they be there forever? There's so many what if's, but in the world there's no WHAT IF'S. We learn from our mistakes, we don't just learn beforehand, that's life.. The one thing to always remember is that No Matter Where You Fall, As Long As You Can Stand Up Again, You Will Be Fine. Today is PSYC, it was another one of those interesting lectures. Today's lecture was all about Externalising and Internalising Disorders. Let's begin with Externalising Disorders, what come under that is Attention Deficit Disorder, Oppositional Defiant Disorder, and Conduct Disorder. All of those disorders can be observed by others externally. Usually External Disorders are biological, pasted down from generations, and has a ratio of 4:1 Male:Female. Internalising Disorders is the opposite, it is something that can not be observed from how you see that person. Depression and Anxiety are under the internalising disorders section. Usually the person that is suffering from it suffers by themselves and no one would be able to tell. SO SAD...but that's life. Happens more in females than males. Seeing the Careers Advisor For the past few days im like, what should i do? should i do that? or should i do this? Today was the day! I went I went, and when i came out of the room i was smiling...i thought YAY iv'e found what i want to do and i can do this at HOME. This was Speech Language Therapy! But then at the end i've found out that they only accept 40 students into second year...that sure ruined my day... I was so confused again not knowing what there is to do...and there were people that i had to answer to about next year. I called my parents...wondering what they would think. They didn't give me much advice at all, at the end it was "Pick a course that you can graduate really fast in". Im like WTF! Some advice aye No worries, thanks to friends i've finally picked a course for next year. Im no longer in anxiety. It's Consumer FOOD Science!! No longer COMMERCE! My life is back to a princess in a castle again~~  |
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